And I just got to know

Friday, September 12, 2014 @ 1:53 AM

Abnormal

How many times must I say? So many cadets look up to you, you have so many friends. I respect your honesty and feedback but not everyone likes it. They love the sugar coats and prefers overwhelming compliments. But you, you're abnormal. Now is that necessarily bad? Spending most of your wake hours on studying during and not during exam periods. If not, you are either going for meetings, recce, idk what you're doing but always planned ahead and time unwasted. Your body and brain is vexed at the end of the day to wake up to another full run of events. I guess this comes from the passion and deep commitment you put in. You are hungry for success yet the whole story isnt like how you have pictured it to be. Try to love without expecting a return. Seems impossible. But have that mindset to prioritise loving yourself first. (ok at this point of time, if you find me retarded, you may leave)

How would one know if he loves someone wholeheartedly if the one himself is lorn?

I totally agree that you got to sometimes take a step back to allow friends to be independent as we all are going through different experiences at the same second. We have a mind on our own and we make different choices. The indecisive, the solicitous, the benevolent, the optimist, the wise, the know-it-all, the cunning, the frivolous. Which is you?

I'm not telling or instructing or demanding you to figure yourself, because each day we hopefully learn and reflect. Reflection is a healthy exercise that not everyone can pass. It's not all about listing the sours. Thats just the first part. How about what you have learnt and how to overcome it. How about the spicy and sweet milestones and joy. How about all the smiles and giggles you have put on people, impacting their day, their month, their thoughts. Yeah is it worth it?

Firefighters would run into a burning collapsing building saving as many people whos names they don't even know or bother to know. These casualties might have been a bully, their enemy, whatsoever, but it is compassion that keeps them moving forward. If they are injured, where are the casualties and family to help you? By just receiving a smile, their efforts are satisfied. They love without expecting a return. They literally save bodies but only the individual himself can save his own soul. You are a hero. Chin up. Fight your own fire within you.