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Saturday, November 14, 2015 @ 3:28 AM

Injured in a physical competition

I had a dilemma
And a really huge one
It was pain vs suzana
It's about what I want

Honestly I dont give a damn
If we couldn't make it
But everyone was ready and brought their cam
I knew I couldn't let it slip

You see, they require two females
If not we'd be disqualified
So I couldn't just bail
My balls automatically solidified

If I were to describe to you
It's like pouring alcohol on a flesh and lighting a match
It's not burning nor is it cool
But the worst is having a patch

The patch sticks like a glue
Its required before I could wear number 4
So too bad boo hoo
The pressure hurts to the core

What is this pressure?
Is it the pain of the exposed flesh?
Or is it the disappointed faces of those who were so sure?
We went through the sequence and planned to dash
( Yea, I was torturing myself with a bash)

They look at me limp
"are you okay?"
I laughed uncontrollably like a pimp
"A O K"

Labels: #niner, Everyone was so enthu, Inhale love Exhale hate., literature, Mission accomplished, ncdcc, Outdoor love, You think you do but you have no idea.

Monday, June 1, 2015 @ 12:01 AM

We only have one body

The part where every excited soul is given only one body is driving me crazy. I separate these activities into different categories where I consider the following: Compulsory, Optional, Stress Relief, Education, Family, Friends, Self reward, Positive, Negative, Energy level.

For example, ODAC vs Promotional ceremony vs Unit annual camp. ODAC is physical training and they needed helpers but Im not in the main committee so I'm not obliged to help all the time eventhough they are my friends; promotional ceremony is stress free as there is no preparation or much things to do and to reward myself for going to school and enduring; unit annual camp is annual hah and definitely stressful, education of juniors and friends.

ODAC: compulsory, extremely high energy, stress relief.
PC: compulsory, low energy, stress relief, self reward.
UC: optional, extremely high energy, positive, education.

= life is a hard decision and at times you have to make decisions, and I took up the CLT course so I have to do my "job" and commit to what I signed up for.

Or you can run away by saying "I got no choice what", we all have choices.

Labels: be patient., camp, Life is a test, Mission accomplished, ncdcc, Outdoor love, Stress, You think you do but you have no idea.

Thursday, April 18, 2013 @ 4:53 PM

NCDCC Day 2013 (12 April 2013)

Officially, this marks the last NCDCC DAY PARADE for me. It’s an honor to be in the Guard Of Honor (GOH Gold Unit) Contigent, once again. It was only possible

I’ve to a confession to make, I didn’t clip my collar. It’s was an obstacle! Jun Zhi and I were stretching our eyeballs out for Isa to have a trio-ASM photo for the last time. When with them, I instantly reflect on how unmotivated I am to do other things in life. Hahah as we live like an hour ride away (It’s considered far in Singapore), we don’t bother to meet up.

Hiroshiiiiii. This encik is a year faster than me as his school just started NCDCC and they used all the potential leaders. Yes, by observing just like that, I predict that his school would be lucky to have him. I didn’t get to snap with the rest like Alwany, Aaron.

OK so before you judge me, there are a majority of boys in NCDCC and all the girls that I know of are not here. But this one I have to say, is gayyyyy. He’s a thousand times hyper and energetic than me. If you find me talkative, oh you won’t survive with him. Ladies, if you’re looking for constant entertainment, here you go. HAHHA DAMN he was much smaller two years ago. I can’t seem to get hold of the photos we took but finally I’ve got one. balabalabalabala *does the finger shake thing*

Oh my ear-piercing lovelies. Not all was in as everyone was scattered, running against time.

The number ones featuring my ex ma’am. It’s weird how I still call her that when she no longer is the overall in charge. Beside me is my CLT Casey who was my senior in my lower sec days. Hmm, she’s back because she loves us, right? Anyway, it sucks every toilet break time/ changing time as Im like an awkward turtle.

Believe it or not, this is the Sir who trained me in my Senior-Non-Commisioner-Course (SNCO). He is shorter than me. It is a big deal even until now because he tries to bully everyone but he has to look up (literally) to them. Ahhh, I miss NEKRA.

This is my only photo with Zhi yao! He is secretly noisy but not chatty. Im not sure how to put it, but he is my savior for a lot of times I’m alone. hahhahah ok thanks ah suzy. He’s the only non-aqua in the group of aquas.

The best people who were carrying my stuff around, especially Selly. So they “choaped” the toilet and laid out my number 4 uniform. From head gear change to garters. They are the most patient. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t force them to do it. After marching out, we were only given 5 minutes to change for our Precision Drill Squad performance which had a really unexpected positive feedback from other school’s cadets’ tweets.

Jurong west cadets who attended (except for Darren and Kenneth) It was honestly torturous to get everyone together as we had our different contingents to attend to. So this was the closest.

My inspiring seniors who I looked up to since my first year. I address them as ma’ams now. Im surrounded by lovely people.

Birthday song before marching out of HQ.

Our VP had to make a huge round as Jurong West received both the awards! Sustained and UOPA Gold. *sigh of relief!* We’ve been constantly reminded for a whole year on how all 5 UGs have been consistent in getting Gold. Honestly, I think that we panicked too much.
Some came to support us, and we sort of neglected them. But yes, Im sure they enjoyed the PDS performance.

look at the standardized hentak kaki *very proud of all of them*

Ok from here, Im gonna try to control myself from blogging on NCDCC.

Labels: distraction, Fun, melting, ncdcc, satisfied, You think you do but you have no idea.

Sunday, April 14, 2013 @ 11:20 PM

If you missed it

If you’re impatient, I advice you start from 0.55s. So anyway, can you spot me? HAHA IM HERE.

After 3 days of slow marching, I finally feel the burn. It’s not as easy as you predict.

Labels: exercise, ncdcc, satisfied

Thursday, April 11, 2013 @ 12:00 AM

Last rehearsal

Im gonna post these photos in the GOH 2013 whatsapp group and troll them.

These are photos from 2011 where I was still a lance corporal. Definitely this parade had tremendously made an impact on me. It was through foot drill did I realize the small but noticeable common mistakes. From here, I got to enjoy the company of camaraderie. Just last week, I bumped into some of them in HQ- Some have advanced to became cadet lieutenants while some disappeared. The rest who were also sec 2 at that time have transformed with me. We are back for more. There is a huge difference between these two contingents. There are benefits of SUPER KILAT GOH (2011) and GOH GOLD UNIT (2013). Haha even the nicknames changed.

Instead of just learning the special moves for the GOH contingent only, I observed how different sirs explain the foot drill. It’s really fascinating when you can differentiate the different style of teaching and controlling. I truly respect to those who are patient but strict at the same time. I have been trying to be that kind of leader for 5 months already and this is the right chance for me. Although I’ve passed out, don’t tell the rest that.

One of the advantages of being Suzana is that I am treated the same and no more screams of “Yes ASM!” is heard in this contingent. Being the 4th shortest man out of a contingent of 40 plus is okay la. As they confidently assumed that I was sec two, it wasn’t awkward to interact. When I was in their boots (lol), I secretly feared the staff sergeants with authority. I kept things to myself although there had been major problems with the contigent.

On wednesday, more of them found out my true identity as Jurong West was invited to perform our Precision Drill Squad’s 2nd runner up performance. ACSI is performing first thus they have lesser time to change to lunatic.

Ok I can’t stand holding the water mist gun too still for long, I need to let if fly in the air sometime.

Labels: Fun, ncdcc

Monday, April 8, 2013 @ 11:35 PM

Hydrogen gas test

Firstly, I just can’t comprehend to why we had to fall in at exactly 3.30pm when focus test ends at the same time. Haha now that I come to think of it, I realize the teacher who was lecturing us on the importance of coming earlier for test had wasted our time. You see, we changed and reached class 5 minutes before 2.30pm which apparently wasn’t early enough.

Darren was the parade commander (he has been waiting forever). It’s his last chance to shine and Im truly proud of all of us who have gone through 4 years of running for the sirs favourite walls and trees. Being the IC of the NCDCC contingent, I turned to glance at my cadet mates for the last time in a squad. Before facing the front, Ainah and I pinky promised to not tear at all.

Our Passing Out Parade was held at the hall and I had to clench my fist damn tightly to control my emotions. During the two mini rehearsals, I constantly assured myself “It’s not the last time”.

Literally in a blink of an eye (ok la i closed my eyes for 10 seconds at least to prepare myself mentally), PC commanded “Hormat kehadapan, HORMAT” for arrival of Mr Gan.

Faizal, Ainah, Chye Yeun, Zhi Yao received awards for outstanding contributions and as they marched down one by one, I smiled widely to them, and they returned it proudly :)

Mr Gan gave his speech which was compressed in his version of "Hare and Turtle” story which made me reflect on my sec 2-3 days. Then a sudden flash of me whining to my mum on how lame uniform groups are when I was forced to put it as my first choice. No regrets, phew!

So finally, I took my last deep breath. and I shouted it, *left right left* “POP!!!!!!!!!!!!”

Yes, I was hesitant to throw my beret up in the air, afraid that I would not have the accuracy to catch my pride. I held in beret still on my head with both hands, it just didn’t want to come off, you know?

It wasn’t hard to differentiate my beret from the rest :) If you get it.

We were greeted by our children with hugs, cards, and huge posters. Yes, it was unexpected. If you thought they were sweet, you thought wrong. We walked ourselves into sticky flour and dots were all over me. I didn’t dare to open my eyes. Even my phone decided to swim in the sink. That really shattered my heart. I know it’s just a device that can be bought, but hello, please be considerate and at least save my phone.

The cake was delicious :P I thanked them for all the efforts on the cards and collecting money because I was there last year and it was torturous. My SCLT behind was being cheeky but he taught me a lot in the short period of time he was in Jurong West. My cadets are lucky to have him from the moment they take over the unit.

Ofcourse I took pictures with my friends from other cca. I didn’t get to use my phone camera much. *sigh* I even wasted my efforts in bringing my polaroid. *STANDING OVATION FOR SUZANA* Ps; this chiobu on my left who calls me “handsome” every time, really thinks he’s some hot stuff. hahah

I wanted to finish this bottle of water as I needed space in my bag to fit in my full uniform. Mission accomplished.

I didn’t check the time nor my phone (because it was missing) and my ideas were put to waste. Everything didn’t go according to MY PLAN. It wasn’t me who was supposed to be receiving the flour. One fine day, someone will do my job for me. HAHA.

Those heartfelt letters were adorable and funny and they can finally tease me. But what really snapped me was when a cadet came to me and asked innocently “ASM, when will you be coming back?”

This does not mark the end of my journey in NCDCC.

Hopefully, I’ll be back.

Labels: Fun, i need a hug., Inhale love Exhale hate., Makan, My bag was effing huge., ncdcc, Umbrellas, You think you do but you have no idea.

Friday, April 5, 2013 @ 11:39 PM

Speech Day 2013

Finally we were part of the Guard Of Honour contingent for speech day. Thank god for the amazing half an hour of absorption of Vitamin D. The weather has been uncertain for the last few days that we didnt know what to expect. Not much time was given for preparation and I wasn’t even there to conduct uniform inspection. Am I the only one without instagram?

USM and ASM with the supporting contingent. Can you spot me?

When water parade gets too boring,

Polo sweets parade is the new Jurong West’s style.

Sweets up!

UP!

Wrappers off!

OFF!

In the count of three, ask permission from whoever to eat up!

Permission to eat up!

hahahaha this is what you call cool SNCOs.

Amirah entered the school with new sets of polished boots. It was just when she passed out about a year ago and we took over. Last few moments left.

On the first day of NCDCC, this boy was merely above my shoulder level. No feelings of regret of constantly bullying him whenever possible as I predicted him to return them back once we reach our senior year. True enough, all the insults are shooted back at me and I have to accept it.

The rest of the photos are either taken by Polaroids or my friend’s phone camera. I find it retarded when I take a picture of the printed instax photos. But who cares? :) Uploading in next post promise.

Labels: Everyone was so enthu, Fun, Makan, ncdcc

Saturday, November 14, 2015 @ 3:28 AM Injured in a physical competition I had a dilemma And a really huge one It was pain vs suzana It's about what I want Honestly I dont give a damn If we couldn't make it But everyone was ready and brought their cam I knew I couldn't let it slip You see, they require two females If not we'd be disqualified So I couldn't just bail My balls automatically solidified If I were to describe to you It's like pouring alcohol on a flesh and lighting a match It's not burning nor is it cool But the worst is having a patch The patch sticks like a glue Its required before I could wear number 4 So too bad boo hoo The pressure hurts to the core What is this pressure? Is it the pain of the exposed flesh? Or is it the disappointed faces of those who were so sure? We went through the sequence and planned to dash ( Yea, I was torturing myself with a bash) They look at me limp "are you okay?" I laughed uncontrollably like a pimp "A O K" Labels: #niner, Everyone was so enthu, Inhale love Exhale hate., literature, Mission accomplished, ncdcc, Outdoor love, You think you do but you have no idea. back to top?
Monday, June 1, 2015 @ 12:01 AM We only have one body The part where every excited soul is given only one body is driving me crazy. I separate these activities into different categories where I consider the following: Compulsory, Optional, Stress Relief, Education, Family, Friends, Self reward, Positive, Negative, Energy level. For example, ODAC vs Promotional ceremony vs Unit annual camp. ODAC is physical training and they needed helpers but Im not in the main committee so I'm not obliged to help all the time eventhough they are my friends; promotional ceremony is stress free as there is no preparation or much things to do and to reward myself for going to school and enduring; unit annual camp is annual hah and definitely stressful, education of juniors and friends. ODAC: compulsory, extremely high energy, stress relief. PC: compulsory, low energy, stress relief, self reward. UC: optional, extremely high energy, positive, education. = life is a hard decision and at times you have to make decisions, and I took up the CLT course so I have to do my "job" and commit to what I signed up for. Or you can run away by saying "I got no choice what", we all have choices. Labels: be patient., camp, Life is a test, Mission accomplished, ncdcc, Outdoor love, Stress, You think you do but you have no idea. back to top?
Thursday, April 18, 2013 @ 4:53 PM NCDCC Day 2013 (12 April 2013) Officially, this marks the last NCDCC DAY PARADE for me. It’s an honor to be in the Guard Of Honor (GOH Gold Unit) Contigent, once again. It was only possible I’ve to a confession to make, I didn’t clip my collar. It’s was an obstacle! Jun Zhi and I were stretching our eyeballs out for Isa to have a trio-ASM photo for the last time. When with them, I instantly reflect on how unmotivated I am to do other things in life. Hahah as we live like an hour ride away (It’s considered far in Singapore), we don’t bother to meet up. Hiroshiiiiii. This encik is a year faster than me as his school just started NCDCC and they used all the potential leaders. Yes, by observing just like that, I predict that his school would be lucky to have him. I didn’t get to snap with the rest like Alwany, Aaron. OK so before you judge me, there are a majority of boys in NCDCC and all the girls that I know of are not here. But this one I have to say, is gayyyyy. He’s a thousand times hyper and energetic than me. If you find me talkative, oh you won’t survive with him. Ladies, if you’re looking for constant entertainment, here you go. HAHHA DAMN he was much smaller two years ago. I can’t seem to get hold of the photos we took but finally I’ve got one. balabalabalabala does the finger shake thing Oh my ear-piercing lovelies. Not all was in as everyone was scattered, running against time. The number ones featuring my ex ma’am. It’s weird how I still call her that when she no longer is the overall in charge. Beside me is my CLT Casey who was my senior in my lower sec days. Hmm, she’s back because she loves us, right? Anyway, it sucks every toilet break time/ changing time as Im like an awkward turtle. Believe it or not, this is the Sir who trained me in my Senior-Non-Commisioner-Course (SNCO). He is shorter than me. It is a big deal even until now because he tries to bully everyone but he has to look up (literally) to them. Ahhh, I miss NEKRA. This is my only photo with Zhi yao! He is secretly noisy but not chatty. Im not sure how to put it, but he is my savior for a lot of times I’m alone. hahhahah ok thanks ah suzy. He’s the only non-aqua in the group of aquas. The best people who were carrying my stuff around, especially Selly. So they “choaped” the toilet and laid out my number 4 uniform. From head gear change to garters. They are the most patient. Don’t get me wrong, I didn’t force them to do it. After marching out, we were only given 5 minutes to change for our Precision Drill Squad performance which had a really unexpected positive feedback from other school’s cadets’ tweets. Jurong west cadets who attended (except for Darren and Kenneth) It was honestly torturous to get everyone together as we had our different contingents to attend to. So this was the closest. My inspiring seniors who I looked up to since my first year. I address them as ma’ams now. Im surrounded by lovely people. Birthday song before marching out of HQ. Our VP had to make a huge round as Jurong West received both the awards! Sustained and UOPA Gold. sigh of relief! We’ve been constantly reminded for a whole year on how all 5 UGs have been consistent in getting Gold. Honestly, I think that we panicked too much. Some came to support us, and we sort of neglected them. But yes, Im sure they enjoyed the PDS performance. look at the standardized hentak kaki very proud of all of them Ok from here, Im gonna try to control myself from blogging on NCDCC. Labels: distraction, Fun, melting, ncdcc, satisfied, You think you do but you have no idea. back to top?
Sunday, April 14, 2013 @ 11:20 PM If you missed it If you’re impatient, I advice you start from 0.55s. So anyway, can you spot me? HAHA IM HERE. After 3 days of slow marching, I finally feel the burn. It’s not as easy as you predict. Labels: exercise, ncdcc, satisfied back to top?
Thursday, April 11, 2013 @ 12:00 AM Last rehearsal Im gonna post these photos in the GOH 2013 whatsapp group and troll them. These are photos from 2011 where I was still a lance corporal. Definitely this parade had tremendously made an impact on me. It was through foot drill did I realize the small but noticeable common mistakes. From here, I got to enjoy the company of camaraderie. Just last week, I bumped into some of them in HQ- Some have advanced to became cadet lieutenants while some disappeared. The rest who were also sec 2 at that time have transformed with me. We are back for more. There is a huge difference between these two contingents. There are benefits of SUPER KILAT GOH (2011) and GOH GOLD UNIT (2013). Haha even the nicknames changed. Instead of just learning the special moves for the GOH contingent only, I observed how different sirs explain the foot drill. It’s really fascinating when you can differentiate the different style of teaching and controlling. I truly respect to those who are patient but strict at the same time. I have been trying to be that kind of leader for 5 months already and this is the right chance for me. Although I’ve passed out, don’t tell the rest that. One of the advantages of being Suzana is that I am treated the same and no more screams of “Yes ASM!” is heard in this contingent. Being the 4th shortest man out of a contingent of 40 plus is okay la. As they confidently assumed that I was sec two, it wasn’t awkward to interact. When I was in their boots (lol), I secretly feared the staff sergeants with authority. I kept things to myself although there had been major problems with the contigent. On wednesday, more of them found out my true identity as Jurong West was invited to perform our Precision Drill Squad’s 2nd runner up performance. ACSI is performing first thus they have lesser time to change to lunatic. Ok I can’t stand holding the water mist gun too still for long, I need to let if fly in the air sometime. Labels: Fun, ncdcc back to top?
Monday, April 8, 2013 @ 11:35 PM Hydrogen gas test Firstly, I just can’t comprehend to why we had to fall in at exactly 3.30pm when focus test ends at the same time. Haha now that I come to think of it, I realize the teacher who was lecturing us on the importance of coming earlier for test had wasted our time. You see, we changed and reached class 5 minutes before 2.30pm which apparently wasn’t early enough. Darren was the parade commander (he has been waiting forever). It’s his last chance to shine and Im truly proud of all of us who have gone through 4 years of running for the sirs favourite walls and trees. Being the IC of the NCDCC contingent, I turned to glance at my cadet mates for the last time in a squad. Before facing the front, Ainah and I pinky promised to not tear at all. Our Passing Out Parade was held at the hall and I had to clench my fist damn tightly to control my emotions. During the two mini rehearsals, I constantly assured myself “It’s not the last time”. Literally in a blink of an eye (ok la i closed my eyes for 10 seconds at least to prepare myself mentally), PC commanded “Hormat kehadapan, HORMAT” for arrival of Mr Gan. Faizal, Ainah, Chye Yeun, Zhi Yao received awards for outstanding contributions and as they marched down one by one, I smiled widely to them, and they returned it proudly :) Mr Gan gave his speech which was compressed in his version of "Hare and Turtle” story which made me reflect on my sec 2-3 days. Then a sudden flash of me whining to my mum on how lame uniform groups are when I was forced to put it as my first choice. No regrets, phew! So finally, I took my last deep breath. and I shouted it, left right left “POP!!!!!!!!!!!!” Yes, I was hesitant to throw my beret up in the air, afraid that I would not have the accuracy to catch my pride. I held in beret still on my head with both hands, it just didn’t want to come off, you know? It wasn’t hard to differentiate my beret from the rest :) If you get it. We were greeted by our children with hugs, cards, and huge posters. Yes, it was unexpected. If you thought they were sweet, you thought wrong. We walked ourselves into sticky flour and dots were all over me. I didn’t dare to open my eyes. Even my phone decided to swim in the sink. That really shattered my heart. I know it’s just a device that can be bought, but hello, please be considerate and at least save my phone. The cake was delicious :P I thanked them for all the efforts on the cards and collecting money because I was there last year and it was torturous. My SCLT behind was being cheeky but he taught me a lot in the short period of time he was in Jurong West. My cadets are lucky to have him from the moment they take over the unit. Ofcourse I took pictures with my friends from other cca. I didn’t get to use my phone camera much. sigh I even wasted my efforts in bringing my polaroid. STANDING OVATION FOR SUZANA Ps; this chiobu on my left who calls me “handsome” every time, really thinks he’s some hot stuff. hahah I wanted to finish this bottle of water as I needed space in my bag to fit in my full uniform. Mission accomplished. I didn’t check the time nor my phone (because it was missing) and my ideas were put to waste. Everything didn’t go according to MY PLAN. It wasn’t me who was supposed to be receiving the flour. One fine day, someone will do my job for me. HAHA. Those heartfelt letters were adorable and funny and they can finally tease me. But what really snapped me was when a cadet came to me and asked innocently “ASM, when will you be coming back?” This does not mark the end of my journey in NCDCC. Hopefully, I’ll be back. Labels: Fun, i need a hug., Inhale love Exhale hate., Makan, My bag was effing huge., ncdcc, Umbrellas, You think you do but you have no idea. back to top?
Friday, April 5, 2013 @ 11:39 PM Speech Day 2013 Finally we were part of the Guard Of Honour contingent for speech day. Thank god for the amazing half an hour of absorption of Vitamin D. The weather has been uncertain for the last few days that we didnt know what to expect. Not much time was given for preparation and I wasn’t even there to conduct uniform inspection. Am I the only one without instagram? USM and ASM with the supporting contingent. Can you spot me? When water parade gets too boring, Polo sweets parade is the new Jurong West’s style. Sweets up! UP! Wrappers off! OFF! In the count of three, ask permission from whoever to eat up! Permission to eat up! hahahaha this is what you call cool SNCOs. Amirah entered the school with new sets of polished boots. It was just when she passed out about a year ago and we took over. Last few moments left. On the first day of NCDCC, this boy was merely above my shoulder level. No feelings of regret of constantly bullying him whenever possible as I predicted him to return them back once we reach our senior year. True enough, all the insults are shooted back at me and I have to accept it. The rest of the photos are either taken by Polaroids or my friend’s phone camera. I find it retarded when I take a picture of the printed instax photos. But who cares? :) Uploading in next post promise. Labels: Everyone was so enthu, Fun, Makan, ncdcc back to top?